Of course it's difficult, difficult to consider a passion to become a future career you accumulated. It's often nice of a thought to become passionate about your future. And often a nice thought thinking to what  road you're heading to.

I've always been frightened out of my mind. The things I wouldn't be able to do. 
Sometimes, it's just easier to cover it up with things that fill you with exuberance, but again, it's never that simple. From what you struggle to from getting this far, it's not about realizing that you struggled through school, work, or anything in general, but it's coming to the realization that because of those struggles you excelled and found potential in places you never guessed. I caught myself recalling a day back, back in the days where being raised around animals, I've always wanted to become field of animal biology, however, that plan didn't work out. I was slowly being replaced with other considerations while growing up.